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.+.+.CONFIRMATION ONE.+.+.

Matt Jenson is just another boy roaming around St. Peter's Catholic school. He doesn't know who he is or what he wants any more than anyone else does at 14. That is, unless it comes to the beautiful boy sleeping on the bunk above him. Boy-on-boy.

If I kiss you

“Do you ever think about dying?” I practically whispered. The tar felt solid and reassuring beneath the soles of my feet, yet I drastically wanted to be airborne. I didn’t want to feel limited to the ground, fixed to this place.

“Yeah,” he said. He kicks a pebble off the highway with a black sneaker. “You?”

“Yeah, I guess I do. It’s a lot to deal with, you know?” I looked up to the black sky. It was so empty. There were no stars, no brilliant points of light to fight for. There was no moon, nothing that set in stone rose and fell with each passing hell. There was no

Do you ever think about dying? What would happen if you died? Who would miss you?

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Maybe this will work out - MxDThat bathroom always was a bitch.

When we first got to St. Peters, I was nervous about sharing a bathroom with another guy and two girls. Sharing with Dominick was easy; he didn’t really give so long as nothing was broken. Sharing with two girls was another story.

They took over the place. One night I was in there and it was all normal. The next morning I go in there and it’s been feminized. The sink is covered in bottles and vials of goops and gels. The shelf in the shower is weighted down with shampoo bottles and prissy soap and even a little black razor (Amaris’, no doubt.) Maybe this will work out - MxD
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.+.+.CONFIRMATION SIX.+.+.I should start by saying somebody did follow me.

But it wasn’t Dom.

I’m sorry to say it, but he didn’t come after me and magically start confessing his undying love for me. That’s not how we worked. We did things in stages. Clunky, rough, horrendous stages, but that was the way that it all happened.

But somebody followed.

Amaris did.

“The first time is always the hardest, Matt.”

I looked up, wiping a stray tear off my face. I hadn’t noticed I was crying, but I seemed to be doing more and more of that these days. Maybe I neede .+.+.CONFIRMATION SIX.+.+.
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Long after midnightLong after midnight in this empty hallway I wait in that blackness.

Abysmal I should say, an apt word, the show what waits at that hell-bound window.

I should not say
that here, long after midnight, I will wait for you any longer.

Perhaps its here, long after midnight,
that I shall bid
farewell.

Here, beneath this hell-bound window,
I may just leave you,
forlorn and
shadowed in your own blood-soaked fate.

For you I would.

For you my finger shall not hesitate & Long after midnight
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Panic! is dead.

Tue Jul 7, 2009, 4:01 PM

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So the rumors are true then. Shit. This is terribly sad. Terribly. I might have to just go listen to A Fever You Can't Sweat Out over and over until i can't stand to hear Brendons voice. And then i'll put Northern Downpour on repeat and cry because i'll never get to hear Brendon sing that funny harmony part with Ryan again.

I'm more upset than i have been in God knows how long.

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Current Residence: in the dark
Interests: reading, music, theatre.
Favourite movie: Bruce Almighty
Favourite genre of music: emo and country... go ahead and say it, i'm a weird one
Favourite poet or writer: Scott Westerfeld.
MP3 player of choice: ipod nano
Wallpaper of choice: currently Envy and Wrath.
Favourite game: Monopoly?
Personal Quote: The pen in mightier than the sword (but have a sword handy just in case ;)